Our journey (so far)

After 5 years of infertility, we finally got a BFP via IUI with donor sperm. Pregnant with healthy identical twin girls, my husband and I thought our dreams had finally come true!
On June 12th, 2008 our world collapsed. Our little girls hearts had stopped beating at 19 weeks, due to Twin-to-Twin Tranfusion Syndrome. Berber and Gerber were our perfect little angels, and we miss them dearly each and every day.

Seven months after losing the girls, we were fortunate enough to conceive again using the same donor. On September 15th, 2009, we welcomed our son, Sherbert, into the world. This is our journey.

Friday, September 11, 2009

37 week (!!) checkup

This morning was my 37 week ob check. I'm feeling like the ol' pro, going in there once a week and all. Kinda brings me back to the days at the RE. B and I had "our" couch and felt completely comfortable taking a little snooze on each others shoulders while we waiting for the morning wanding. We also thoroughly enjoyed watching the dudes go into the wank room. Ahhh...the romance.

Stats:
Weight: +2.2lbs
BP: 128/84
Fetal Heart Tones: 130s
Fetal movement: +
Fundal height: 35 (still not liking that number...)
Gestational age: 37w4d

My cervix is still long and I'm still at 1cm.

Then this afternoon I happened to look at myself in the mirror. Cause its hard to miss someone my size walking by a mirror, not cause I'm self-absorbed or anything. I just stopped and stared. My belly looked different. It was lower. It...he...Sherbie has dropped.

Woah. Freakout mode.

After some time with Dr. Google I've found out that this can happen a few weeks ahead of birth, but it's still really, really weird. Like one minute it was high...now its all low. Oh...and I had some contractions tonight too. Not painful or anything, but I'm thinking my bod is in full-on practice mode.

Shit. How can you wait and beg and wish and pray for something for 6 years, only to completely freak out that you're not prepared when the time finally comes?? Ugh.

23 bazillion swimmers:

Heather said...

You can do it!!

I'm so excited for you!!

meinsideout said...

I would be freaking out too! You go girl!

Renee said...

So exciting!!! Yes, you will freak...it's all different emotions that take over you!!! {{{Hugs}}}

Loretta said...

Congrats on being full-term!

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Get ready, girl!! No matter how long you wait for a baby and how hard you wish for a baby you will still have "Oh, Shit am I ready for this" moments. As for labor, in the grand scheme of things it isn't that long. I had a friend that has kids in teens and 20's and she said to me "it really isn't that bad. You can do anything for 12 hours if it gets you what you want." Little did she know mine would be twice that amount of time. Seriously mine was 24 hours long and I would do it again and again and again!

I can't wait!

HereWeGoAJen said...

Full term! Yeah! I'm excited!

S said...

I'm so excited for you guys! I can't wait to see that little Sherb! Don't worry about that height thing...with my first I never got past 33 and with the second never above 35. Hey...nothing wrong with a little smaller baby anyway :).

Jess said...

So exciting...in less than 3 weeks (praying he won't be a late baby), he will be here! It will all fall into place, you guys can do it!

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Deborah said...

That is totally normal. I'm excited for you!

Anastasia said...

nobody is really prepared for childbirth. nobody. Not even when they've been through it before.

Eskimo_Kisses_4_U said...

Woo-Hoo! Sounds to me like your little boy is getting ready to make his grand entrance to see his mommy and daddy! You can do it. :)

Cara said...

Rock out that labor girl...you can do it!!!

La La said...

Eeeeee, I'm so excited for you!

Don't worry, the time leading up to labor (ie thinking about it, obsessing, freaking, etc) is actually worse (IMHO) than the real deal. Yes, it hurts, but it's also exciting! Not to mention rewarding! =)

((hugs))

Erika said...

YEA!!!! You know, Blythe came on her own at 38 weeks...the day after my OB told me that I wasn't dilated at all, not effaced at all, and that I had plenty of time...she was born about 24 hours later. So excited for you!!!

Monica said...

woohoo! Cannot wait to meet him!

Gil said...

I was in your shoes a mere month ago when Petite dropped and it really stunned me at the difference in my shape! It's so amazing though... what a wonderful feeling to know you're on the cusp of welcoming your own little one into your family. I'm absolutely thrilled for you and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that all continues to go perfectly for you! Enjoy it... each and every little moment!

annacyclopedia said...

I am SO excited for you, although I share your trepidation. In some ways, I think the more you had to beg and pray and wait, the more fraught things can be when showtime finally rolls around! All that anticipation and all those emotions.

I just recently had a moment a few weeks ago when I had a spontaneous realization that totally made me freak out: "This baby has to come out of my VAGINA!" Even though I've been aware of that little fact for as long as I can remember, it still took me by surprise somewhat. And then all I can do is laugh at myself even in the midst of freaking out!

Yay for 37 weeks and for Sherbie dropping! Your body knows what it is doing and is getting ready for the hard work ahead, and that is so wonderful. Even if you are not feeling prepared right now, your body is doing its thing - cool!

Karen said...

I check every day for news of Sherbie's birth!.....Your feelings are not strength at all!...you will be an exceptional Mommy.....prayers going up!

Miz Kizzle said...

How cool! My kids never dropped. They stayed snuggled in there upside-down, their knobby little heads poking me under my ribs right up to the very last moment when they had to be dragged out by their feet.
Believe me, it's better when they drop.

MDZ said...

Be happy that Sherbie dropped! It means he's in position and ready to go! My little guy (now 6 months old) never dropped and he wasn't engaged when my water broke starting my labor. Things didn't go so well from there. So good for you that Sherbie engaged!!!! Good luck! It's so exciting.

Ms. J said...

Wow, I am looking at your countdown and astounded how few days are left!

Speaking of which, and I saw this with lots of delicacy and love, but have you given any thought to editing your header, so that Mr. Sherbie is now part of it, too? I recently made changes to mine, also, which is probably why it even crossed my mind to re-read yours.

I would understand if you don't want to, or aren't ready, to. Your girls are always with you, and their little brother, too.

Wuv you, lots.

~Hollie said...

I am in the same friggin boat! I can't believe that this time has come. Its almost been too short. I'm just really getting used to saying that I'm pregnant. In a few short weeks, all that will be history. Just totally surreal!

Emily said...

He's almost here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yah!!!!!! I had Alexa at 38 weeks 3 days, by the way. It could happen any time now. I CAN'T WAIT! I'm thinking about you during these last days.