Our journey (so far)

After 5 years of infertility, we finally got a BFP via IUI with donor sperm. Pregnant with healthy identical twin girls, my husband and I thought our dreams had finally come true!
On June 12th, 2008 our world collapsed. Our little girls hearts had stopped beating at 19 weeks, due to Twin-to-Twin Tranfusion Syndrome. Berber and Gerber were our perfect little angels, and we miss them dearly each and every day.

Seven months after losing the girls, we were fortunate enough to conceive again using the same donor. On September 15th, 2009, we welcomed our son, Sherbert, into the world. This is our journey.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

9 months

It's been nine months since you left my body. Nine months since my life completely collapsed.

I went into the hospital that morning hysterical, and came out numb. A piece of my soul literally taken from my body.

Today your baby brother or sister is in that place, growing bigger and stronger every day. S/he has taken over the physical space in my body, but no one will ever replace the hole in my heart. You are always and forever my perfect little angels.

I love you Kar.is. I love you Add.ison. Always.

23 bazillion swimmers:

Devon said...

just a hug....

Mary said...

Lots of love, sweets!

Erika said...

Sending you lots and lots of hugs. Today was my 8 month anniversary without my girls, and it is so hard...just really hard, and I don't know when it gets easier. (((hugs)))

Leslee said...

I can't believe it's been nine months already... in some ways it seems like yesterday. Sending you love and warmth through the miles between us.

Hugs,
Leslee

Marie said...

You are a brave, wonderful, loving mother to ALL your children. May you always be at peace but never forget the love you have for those little girls.

Your little bean cooking is one lucky little sprout :)

Carrie Ann said...

That's heartbreaking. So sorry

mlg- believe-n-miracles said...

Thinking of you, I am so sorry.

Emily said...

I'm so sorry.

Bluebird said...

It's so surreal to think about time. How it flies and drags at the same time. The significance of milestones and would-be milestones.

((Hugs)) to you as you face this one.

La La said...

Thinking of you.

Wordgirl said...

My thoughts are with you.

Love,

Pam

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Thinking of you and the girls. I didn't realize it was 9 months already. Oh how time flies yet drags at the same time. {{Hugs}}

Jen said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking about your girls extra today.

Cara said...

Always and forever - your first babies!
xoxo

Lorza said...

{{{HUGS}}} Lots of love to you and the girls!

Jane said...

You'll always miss them. (hug) I'm sorry, honey.

Io said...

Hey lady. I came to hold your hand.

G$ said...

Much love
xoxoxox

itsazooaroundhere said...

Thinking of you today, and the girls.

Julia said...

I am so sorry. Nine months was a difficult point for me. I hope you find peaceful moments in these difficult days and in the months ahead, as you approach the one year anniversary.

S said...

I'm so sorry, I wish that things were different. I think that your little one has the best guardian angels ever, with Karis and Addison watching over him/her.

Thinking of you, your hubby and all your little ones.

B said...

It's so unfair. I know you think about them every moment of every day.

Little sweethearts. Your mummy loves you so much.

Take care

B

Alexicographer said...

I've been away but am stopping by to say I've been thinking of you and your daughters.